I’m so frustrated with life right now…and it’s so silly that I’m feeling this way as I know that, at the end of the day, I’m very fortunate and have a roof over my head, food to eat, friends who love me and most importantly I’m running really well and completely injury free (except last night when I had a migraine and I ate all the pain away–score!). I’m super grateful for my blessings big and small (and even record them in a gratitude journal…) but lately it’s just not enough to keep my spirits high.
I feel like a frustrated, stagnant and mildly lifeless woman of late. I hate the fact that I am single, still…like always… while all of my friends are now married and currently riding the baby train.
This frustration is also permeating my dating mindset as many bad dates have skewed my view of them, seeing them less as a chance to meet someone new and more as time that would be better spent running, baking, sleeping or hanging with my friends. lol
I am not at all engaged in my work and I have no idea what I should be doing, could be doing, would enjoy doing. I’m not afraid of throwing it all away to go back to school, taking a pay cut or pursuing something new, I just don’t know what to do so I keep on the same, boring, well paying path.
All of this is just feeding this mixed up undercurrent of snark, bitterness, jealousy in me that has started when I hit 30, but it’s really started to grow in the last months. I’m not enjoying it and I’m afraid that if I don’t act on it soon, it will become permanent… unfortunately though, I don’t know how to get rid of it.
Aside from speaking to someone (the search for someone has begun), does anyone else have any advice in terms of tackling some of these things? I mean, other than quitting my job and finding a way to live full time in Disney World.
Much love and my apologies for a downer post!